Monday, April 29, 2019

paradox


the simplest impossible, 
I've only been affected 
by anything other 
than affection
The only plan made
was to never have 
anything planned
I've only been 
perfect at living as 
an imperfection
The only thing I
understood was how 
much I didn't understand.
Take a look inside,
Both dead and alive,
Simultaneously?
How can we measure it,
If something is living, yet finalised?

Propose a second proposal,
Preferably pick a second one,
Work, well that's force over distance,
Yet how can we measure success?

Power is work over time but 
It can be just and injust
Who decides control, no not I 
It must be him on the inside

Laughing, so can I actually look inside the box..
Like a fidgety penniless ant ready for work,
Yes yes I'm hungry,hungry strong as an ox
Paradoxically held back, retaining an astute smirk

I get it now, needing no quarrels 
Acceptance.
It's the ways it's meant to be
If we find out truth we will pay Schrodinger fury

Hypothesis: Not a chance of success.
Can I open, must I find out.
It will ruin me I'm told.
Accept the unacceptable.

-Mr. 733

BACKspace


BACKspace"
26 alphabets,
10 numbers, 
37 special characters,
Yet BACKSPACE always had a story to tell.

No one knows one's story that was being erased once, would never come back & it is known to be backspace.

Do you know what really BACKSPACE thinks ; " I move back only to erase the worst parts of me but recently something comes over and I delete important paragraphs of my life I can always rewrite them but meanwhile the people around me, they move onto their next chapters. That's when I realized if the author of your life kept hitting BACKSPACE you would have never moved forward "

But the only key that hides our permanently temporary feelings about the present situation acting on others ...how weird it'll be to hear that can feelings change within a fraction of seconds??
Yep. It may be limited upto time, and yet pretending to be alright.

Wouldn't it be nice to have a key 
That was designated for any 'oops'
That could go back like it was never there 
Those words of anger or bitterness shared 
Something that got rid of the mess in life 
Cleaning the page, wiping clean your time 
Making the slate of the day, month, or year 
A page that was free of hatred or your fears 
I would enjoy that key in my life for sure 
But only if it came with a safety feature 
So that when good or kind words came 
And they were not meant but inspired 
I would not be tempted to erase or rewrite 
Things I did not plan to have in my life .
-Mr.733

graveyard of hearts


You told me," Love is full of lies and Plebian" .Why did you plant and sowed the seed of love like a fire deep inside my heart, it is demanding nourishment and growth, there are no sight of relieve to my heart since you left, it is withering in solitude and tears who will extinguish my burning heart ? Why you wasted my feelings and emotions, you already knew how much harder I fell in love with you ? I need you to care about my love for you 
I should feel loved, wanted and desired by you instead

You left me alone lonely, weary and tired. I'm like an content rose, flower whose whole petals are about to fall.Why your poisonous love, like a snake is wreathing my soul in flames? Poisoning my every vein, It is burning me in ashes, My heart is bleeding profoundly with blood red like a lifeless body lying on a bed for her final journey to her/ his Majesty .Why are you turning my happy soothing soul into bitter lonely and wandered soul searching for her|his final destination? Why my conscionable tongue still mention your name like a prayers every second even in my dreams? 
Why your assuage and delightful memories are now excruciating and bleeding me haunting my soul ? It would have been better if you had buried me alone beneath the ground 10 feets below instead of giving pain for a lifetime..Why did you slay my inner soul and peace with your fake love and concern?Why my soul is burning vigorously in your love and memories?What you will call this volcano eruption boiling inside me in your absence? Why I am cursing my heart for falling in love with you? Why I am feeling my world is trembling under my feet? Why can't I fight back my inner demon of your love ?Why my heart is feeling your presence even in your absence ?Why my lips are permeance your name like a robot?Why you left my heart in pieces? Who is going to stitch the broken pieces of my broken heart back together? Why this scars were gifted to me to stay with me forever? Why your love is slaying my heart like a blade? Why this river of ruin and sorrowful worries are flowing from my eyes?
-Mr.733

Little things



Little things in life matters a lot, especially when you share special bond with special someone, it's always important to make other person feel loved, it's important to let them know from time to time where they stand in your life, it's always important to look and consider other persons perspective before taking a decision in life.
Everything counts from taking care of each other, supporting each other, to listening to each other, to talking to each other even in absolute silence, to spending quality time with each other...
Because like every other good thing even the bond which you two share will be shaken, will have to stand tall against the test of time, test of patients, test of our faith...
Always be willing to put in effort, show love, show respect, show unconditional affection, selfless care, support.
In the ways no other person in their life ever have, ever could, ever will...
Because know this we won't be here together for long, like the sun which sets over the horizon, like the moon which rises above the sky in the night, or like the mountains which stand tall against the winds.
 Know this we won't be here for long... Stand beside the one who is dear to you, who you love, give them all the time that you can ever have, be it any kind of relationship... significant other, love, family,friend, teacher and always show how much you love them.
life is precious, the person who you love is precious, every moment counts...
and to have some one who genuinely cares for you, love you at your best and most importantly at your worse..its the best things that could ever happen to you.
Treasure them...
Treasure that Person and Treasure all the Moments you have with them always.”
-Mr.733

the 'dream' girl


To the girl, i only meet in my dreams,

hey, love,

last night after being numb for hours, i slept. then happened the best thing of my life, we met in my dreams. everything was so perfect there, you were holding my hands without any fear and i was looking into those deep eyes. it was so easy there. when i told you about my feelings, you reciprocated. though i knew it was a dream, i wanted to believe the obvious lie i was telling myself.

it's been 12 hours since then and i am continuously thinking about that dream. i even tried to sleep in the noon with a hope that you would be there again in my dream, but i couldn't sleep. i even don't know that i should be happy about that dream or not, so i choose to be happy because you told me in the dream that you like me smiling.

all the thinking has led me to wonder that what if that dream comes to be true one day, how would i react then, how would i be able to hold you without the fear of waking up, and would i be able to carry that much happiness? but i wish you to be mine, i want to be conscious enough while holding you in my arms, and i want to feel that touch, and to get your fragrance. 
will you be mine?

yours,
if not anything, then an idiot.
(Being a human - there's no limitations for imaginations)

-Mr.733 (#story_teller_sky)

CICATRIX


When you came in my life 
I used to be a broken mess
Pieces of my shattered heart 
Were scattered everywhere
Slowly as the time passed by 
You picked up those pieces 
And built my heart 
As good as new 
But it wasn't though 
It was scarred 
Reminding me of my past 
And the pain I had endured
As we got deeper 
Into the forest of love 
You gave me your heart 
And promised to take care of mine 
I trusted you 
I believed n you 
But then the day came 
Which I dreaded the most
You became careless with my heart 
And soon broke it apart 
Along with the trust 
And the faith that I had in you 
Then like the rest 
You walked away
Like you never cared 
And all I could do was let you go 
With each step you took 
To walked away from me 
You stomped on the heart ,
That you once claimed to be in love with,
Thus marking it with new scars .
Which bled your name 
And through those cracks 
Seeped hope that you will 
One day return 
And correct your mistakes.
But it never happened 
And my heart lost its will to beat 
No one was there to hold me 
Or tell me that it will be alright
The scars which were just on my heart 
Now marked my mind and soul as well 
Which bled loneliness and sorrow 
And which screamed out in pain
-Mr.733(#story_teller_sky)

DOOMED


How can I redeem myself 
For all the mistakes that I've made 
While trying to do the right thing 
For all those choices that i made 
which were doomed from the beginning 
For the million ways I've hurt you 
Without meaning too 
For breaking you apart 
When all you ever did 
Was love me 
For who I was 
And who i could be 
You saw the real me 
Beneath all those barriers I had put up 
And yet I pushed you away 
Maybe I was scared 
That you will 
Like others 
Leave me alone ,
But all you wanted 
Was to stay 
And take care
Of my broken heart
Take care of me 
Forgive me for the horrible things that i did and said;
For pushing you away 
And for giving up on you 
But unlike me 
Even after everything
I made you go through 
And all the hateful things I said you never gave up one 
You always wanted to stay 
But i kept pushing you away 
Each time you came a little close
Close enough to see all my wounds 
And all those scars 
Which tells tho story of my past 
I pushed you away to the point
From where there was no return 
Now you don't care 
You have moved on 
And I am left with nothing 
No one to talk 
Or share my feelings with 
Things turned down 
And i am the reason why everything I had slipped away 
From my very own hands...(to be continued)